Wednesday, June 4, 2008

A Forwarded Message - A Beautiful One

I am now, probably for the first time in my life, the person I have always
wanted to be. Oh, not my body! I sometimes despair over my body, the
wrinkles, the baggy eyes, and the sagging butt. And often I am taken aback
by that old person that lives in my mirror (who looks like my mother!), but
I don't agonize over those things for long.

I would never trade my amazing friends, my wonderful life, my loving family
for less gray hair or a flatter belly. As I've aged, I've become more kind
to myself, and less critical of myself. I've become my own friend.

I don't chide myself for eating that extra cookie, or for not making my bed,
or for buying that silly cement gecko that I didn't need, but looks so avant
garde on my patio. I am entitled to a treat, to be messy, to be

I have seen too many dear friends leave this world too soon; before they
understood the great freedom that comes with aging.

Whose business is it if I choose to read or play on the computer until 4 AM
and sleep until noon?

I will dance with myself to those wonderful tunes of the 60&70's, and if I,
at the same time, wish to weep over a lost love ... I will.

I will walk the beach in a swim suit that is stretched over a bulging body,
and will dive into the waves with abandon if I choose to, despite the
pitying glances from the jet set.
They, too, will get old.

I know I am sometimes forgetful. But there again, some of life is just as
well forgotten. And I eventually remember the important

Sure, over the years my heart has been broken.. How can your heart not
break when you lose a loved one, or when a child suffers, or even when
somebody's beloved pet gets hit by a car? But broken hearts are what give
us strength and
understanding and compassion. A heart never broken is pristine and sterile
and will never know the joy of being imperfect.

I am so blessed to have lived long enough to have my hair turning gray, and to
have my youthful laughs be forever etched into deep grooves on my face. So
many have never laughed, and so many have died before their hair could turn

As you get older, it is easier to be positive. You care less about what
other people think. I don't question myself anymore. I've even earned the
right to be wrong.

So, to answer your question, I like being old. It has set me free. I like
the person I have become. I am not going to live forever, but while I am
still here, I will not waste time lamenting what could have been, or
worrying about what will be. And I shall eat dessert every single day. (If I
feel like it)

"OLD AGE - I decided, is a GIFT."



neliaamparo said...

Jo,what a beautiful way to share your feelings with us.And everything you said is true.But how can our friendship be apart when we can't describe the joy and happiness we share everytime we see each other.One example was our mini reunion in San Diego.It's not even a week after the reunion and Editha emailed me asking when the next one will be.She wanted to do it again soon,and I heard from pareng Mike that Fely felt the same way too,so as everybody I'm sure who went to that reunion.It's so addicting,so you don't have to worry about our friendship being apart,we're even getting closer.

josie javier-macalua said...

Love you, Nel! We are all so blessed for belonging to JRI ORION BATCH 1963 !!! Need I say more?

Pilar Villegas Cuevas said...

Reading it first before looking for who posted this I knew it was you. Nice hearing from you again. We are so lucky that we belong to batch 63. We are planning to have mini reunion when you arrived and Mike said if possible in San Diego Again. Hope at that time many have time to come. We really enjoyed those days that we are together in San Diego. Game kasi lahat. Regards and God Bless.

josie javier-macalua said...

Wow! Iba talaga ang batch natin. Look at that, kasama na ako sa plano sa next reunion in San Diego, e wala pa nga akong visa, kahit tourist visa man lamang. Hahaha!

Thanks my dear batchmates. I couldn't thank you enough for your thoughtfulness.

Let's wait and see what the future holds for all of us.

Meanwhile, let's enjoy our old age. CHEERS!!!